Cloudy

Today is a gloomy and cloudy day...and to be honest I am feeling quite gloomy and cloudy inside today. The nurses tried to prepare me that I would be having some major hormonal changes taking place as my body realizes that I am no longer pregnant...and I definitely feel that today. Today I feel disappointed and discouraged. I know these are normal feelings that I will have to work through. The thing that is the most frustrating today is that I am feeling disappointed with God. I feel as though my faith has also taken a nose dive today. I just don't see His plan or purpose in this and I feel confused. I am not asking for any deep theological advice...in fact I know the right responses to most of my thoughts and feelings...today I am just not feeling it. I hate even writing such a depressing blog but I want to be honest that life is hard and hurts are real...and Christians are not immune. The Bible says that we do have a comforter...and that is what I need. I need the peace that passes all understanding, I need joy unspeakable, I need my friend that sticketh closer than a brother, I need hope for the future, I need the Lord.

"When you pass through the waters I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers they will not sweep over you." Is. 43:2
"Come unto me, all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest." Matt. 11:28
"Set me free from my prison, that I may praise your name."Ps. 142:7
"He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season." Ps. 1:3
"He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds." Ps. 147:3
"So do not fear, I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will uphold you with my righteous hand." Is. 41:10
"And I heard a loud voice form the throne saying, "Now the dwelling of God is with men and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. he will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or pain, for the old order of things has passed away." Rev. 21:3-4
"But you, O Lord, be not far off; O my Strength, come quickly to help me." Ps. 22:19

Seek God in your darkness and He will be your light.
Seek God in your questions and He will be your answer.
Seek God in your anger and He will be your peace.
Seek God in your sorrow and He will be your comforter.
Seek God in your uncertainty and He will be your confidence.
Seek God in your sin and He will be your redeemer.
Seek God in you forgiveness and He will be your salvation.
Seek God in your salvation and He will be your eternity.
Kathe Wunnenberg

Wow...blogging is pretty therapeutic...I am feeling better already.