|Eliza and her daddy!|
|More hospital days!|
|Daddy and his BOY!|
|I never want to see you dressed like this again, but I am so thankful you were with me.|
|Holding Eli for the first time!|
|Ella and Daddy in the NICU|
|Oh those hospital days!|
|The boys napping!!|
Today is Kev's 33rd birthday. I have been stressed all day because I'd like to have the house clean, dinner cooked, a cake made, and a gift bought and wrapped in a few short hours. As the morning has progressed I have felt the stress rising, knowing that there is no way I can get it all done and be Betty Crocker home maker, shopper, kid feeder, house cleaner, and birthday party extraordinaire planner all in the hours of this day. If there is anything that 2011 has taught us and is teaching us is that we cannot do it all or be it all!
In our eight short years of marriage this one has taken the cake! If there was ever a year that either one of us would like to get in the car and drive as far away as possible or throw in the towel...it would be this one. We often laugh that we really didn't know what for better or for worse really meant! It means a lot and the stress of this year has been really hard on us individually as well as our marriage. It hasn't been all pretty, but we are continuing to learn what it means to be married, to show grace, and to individually seek the Lord.
I am so thankful that I am married to such a faithful and loving husband. He has loved me on the days when I was so blown up with fluids from that awful c-section...I seriously felt pretty unlovable. He has loved me on days when I have lost my temper in frustration and anger. He has loved me on days when the tears wouldn't stop flowing I couldn't explain why. He has helped me in the middle of night when I felt so sleep deprived that I couldn't wake up one more time. He has bought groceries, cooked meals, taken over bathtime, and helped me try to keep our house in order. I would have lost my mind these past 7 weeks without him.
I am so thankful for Kev's faith. His faith that God has a plan for us and for Eli has helped me not to lose mine. Honestly, I have never seen him express anger over the fact that Eli might never play typical sports or that his son has a disability. He has reminded me many times that there is so much more in life than sports! I am so thankful that Eli will have such a strong and God-loving dad to look up to. I am encouraged that Eli will grow up to be a very normal, yet extraordinary guy because of his dad's influence in his life.
His two little ladies think he is pretty great too!
So, the house may still be messy (I have been cleaning up messes all day), and dinner may not be hot or even finished, and a cake...we'll we are really trying to lose some pounds, and a gift...it may be delayed until you can watch the kids and I can shop. BUT, I hope you know how much this family needs you and how much you are loved.