Miss Elizabeth Anne (Eliza)

Yesterday (Wednesday) I had my complete anatomy scan. It was wonderfully "Normal" and I love normal! I really had a peace in the morning before the ultrasound. In fact I really felt the Lord reminding me that He was in control of this child. So easily I forget! Although I felt a peace in my heart and wasn't as nervous as I usually am...unfortunately my stomach didn't get the memo! Oh well, I am just thankful that it is over! One blessing of our previous losses is that everyone in my doctor's office is super excited for us and super sensitive! The sweet ultrasound lady tries so hard to not to ever alarm me. Yesterday she kept looking at Eliza's heart over and over. She kept saying...everything is fine Julie I am just trying to get the picture I need. The receptionists are all so sweet and always want to know..."How did it go today?" I love them all!

So yes, our next little girl will be Elizabeth Anne and we will call her Eliza. It is so funny because this has never been "one of my names!" You know the ones you claim from your sisters since you were young! In fact I have been saying that our next girl would be Audrey Elaine for years now...but almost as soon as we got pregnant I just felt like she was supposed to be an Eliza. I also really thought she was a girl! I am sure she will get lots of "little Liza Jane" comments! But... I think we are pretty set on it! Ella is too cute trying to say Eliza. It sounds more like why-sa!

We got a few good 3-D pictures which always seem to make it seem more real. They always amaze me! (Eliza says to bear with her..she is gaining weight as fast as she can and hopes her cheeks fill out more before September! ) We love her so much already and can't wait to see her in person!

Happy Mother's Day

All week as Mother's Day has been approaching I have been thinking about many friends and acquaintances who I know this day can be difficult for. For many Mother's Day is a day in which you get pampered...breakfast in bed, flowers, cute cards made by you kids, or picking out the perfect gift for your mom. I never realized how difficult Mother's Day can be for some until we lost Samuel. I struggled that year if I even wanted to go to church that day. I played over and over in my mind if I should stand when they recognized the mother's in the congregation. No one really knew what standing would mean for me. I instead decided to slip out to the bathroom during this portion of the service and I remember my sweet friend Shelbi meeting me there. The tears just fell. I was a mother...I wanted to be a mother more than anything...but I didn't feel like a mother that day.

I know there are so many women who long to be a mommy and are struggling. Mommies who have babies in heaven and their arms literally ache for their child. There are also many who have already lost their mother and this day is hard for them in a different way. Tomorrow as I celebrate God granting me my request to be a mother....I will be praying for these women! Praying that God will give you peace as you wait and a friend to comfort you if those tears just need to fall.

(Thank you Kevin for making me feel special this weekend! I love you!)

19 Months

Our little ella is 19 months old today! We are inching our way closer and closer to two....and I cannot believe it! It makes me sad to know that her first two years of life are almost over. I love her so much and still cannot get over the fact that she is mine! At 19 months she is quite full of personality. She is spunky, full of energy and very loving. Here are the latest ella facts:

1. She is still quite enamored with her Papa. She talks about him constantly, cries if we don't turn into their neighborhood. She looks at his picture daily in her family book and loves and kisses it. She has got him trained to take her night night (aka jump on mimi and papa's bed...which then includes getting to take her shoes off, turn on the t.d (t.v.), getting down off the bed, asking for a cup of water from his bathroom and washing her hands! This is their routine and is it any wonder why she is a Papa's girl!

1. She loves to ride in daddy's truck and everyday when he comes home she tells us to SHHHHH because the truck is night-night! We told her this once as an excuse as to why we had to drive mommy's car!

3. She has made some big strides in listening and obeying in the past month! Hooray! She has had to quite a few minutes in time-out to get her here...and I know there will be many more minutes spent there! We are working on telling mommy or daddy sorry when she disobeys and also Jesus. Then we hug and kiss her and tell her we love her. (Sidenote...I usually tell her that she has to sit in timeout until she is happy....now as soon as she is put there she starts crying happy, happy, happy! ) It is really so cute but obviously it hasn't worked!

4.She is very interested in (Owies-really not sure how to spell that one!) She has a little first Bible that tells the story of the blind man who Jesus heals. The picture has mud on the man's eyes. She loves this story and looks at it several times a day. We've talked over and over about how Jesus heal's our owies. Now every time we talk to her about Jesus she reminds us about our owies and we remind her that Jesus can make them all better!

5. She now recognizes herself in mirrors and pictures and refers to herself as ewa ...which she used to call herself ...you! I think because I'd always say see that's you!

6. She loves people and is a social butterfly like her daddy! She will say hi to anyone! I love how it makes people smile at Target or Wal-mart when she says he-wo!

7. She thinks she, daddy and mommy all have a baby in our tummies!

8. When asked who made the trees she always says Pee-pee (which is what she calls her aunt pam) and then she laughs and says Je-sus!

9. When asked who loves her she said Shack-shun (her cousin Jackson...and might I add that they are quite a combo when they get together!) She thinks he is so fun and laughs and laughs at him!

10. She picks one of my pretty blooming flowers each time we leave the house (usually while I am locking the door and then tells me it's for mimi! She'll hold that little flower in her sweaty little palm until we get it to mimi! Since it is for mimi I can't say no...but I may not have many flowers left in a few weeks!

11. She loves to copy her daddy! Oh my! He was eating a raisin last Saturday and used his tongue and no hands...cool trick daddy! Well wouldn't you know ella refused to used her hands to eat her cheerios in the church nursery on Sunday and insisted on using her little tongue. Daddy was in trouble!

12. She now calls for us when she wakes up which seems to be getting earlier and earlier! She'll call mommy, mommy, mommy and then usually switches to daddy, daddy, daddy! Daddy usually gets her bearing milk and Playhouse Disney! He loves to see and snuggle with her before going to work.

13. She now loves to watch t.v. which she wouldn't at all until after we went to Disney World in March. She loves Mickey and Handy Manny! She watches them every morning while mommy tries to come alive!

I love the fun and joy that ella brings me everyday! I thank God that I am where I am this mother's day! What a Blessing!

19 Weeks and Counting!

I am 19 weeks today and hoping that this means I am half-way done. I have never gone past 39 weeks so I am hoping to continue that trend this time too. I am feeling really good and I think I am feeling some of that 2nd trimester energy now. We have been walking the past two nights and I know that is helping too. I am very thankful to be pregnant and wanting to enjoy each day as our new little one grows. I am vowing to not complain about the heat this summer or the ugly, painful and huge varicose vain that is now going up my entire right leg (Gross). It will be so worth it when I see that little face. It's funny because I have had at least 3 people say to me in the last week...julie...I hate to ask but are you....and they pause because no one wants to ask a woman if they are prego! Then I assure them that the new poundage and protruding stomach are for a good cause!

Kevin and I both have a hard time imaging what this little one will be like and look like. I am sure everyone feels this way when having another child. I know when she gets here she will be the perfect fit for our family!

Here are the stats on a 19 week pregnancy:

Your Baby This week your baby starts bulking up and packing on the grossly named "brown fat" she'll need to keep warm when he gets evicted from his comfortable uterine home. Other highlights this week:Vernix, a milky white coating that protects your baby's skin, appears all over your baby's body to keep his skin from getting pickled in the amniotic fluid. Think of it as if your baby has been dipped in yogurt, like those delicious but fake-healthy yogurt-covered raisins and pretzels. Ooh, we feel another craving comin' on. ... Under the vernix, a fuzzy layer of hair called lanugo now covers baby's body. Don't worry, your Mini won't look like Cousin It when she's born. Most of the fuzz will fall off before baby makes her grand entrance.Good news: Your baby's kidneys are fully functioning and producing urine this week. Bad news: That means there will be lots of diapers in your future. But so far you're safe—at the moment the pee just passes into the amniotic fluid.He or she now weighs about 8½ ounces and measures 6 inches, as long as a turkey sub from Subway on warm, delicious Italian Herbs and Cheese bread (or Honey Oat bread, or Oregano bread or ...)

Win a pouch sling!

A cool mommy blog is having a giveaway for a free pouch sling! I have never used a sling but I think it may be helpful for our new little girl (so so excited...i don't think I've mentioned that lately)! Check it outhttp://prayerofhannah.blogspot.com/2009/05/giveaway-pouch-sling.html and leave a comment on their blog if you want to win.

Family Date Night

Yesterday kev called me from work just as he does everyday. We chatted and then he told me to have me and ella ready when he got home for a date. Our instructions were to be comfy and that ella may need a sweater! I love when he plans a date! :) We headed off for our surprise date. We ate a restaurant on the pier at the beach and then enjoyed watching ella play in the sand. We had a great family date!


My Fun and Crazy Husband!

Sweet Kisses from my girl!

She was too young to remember the beach
from last year and so she thought it was great!





She liked the sticks!



And she loved picking up shells!

A wonderful night together!

Have you ever?

Have you ever been grocery shopping and left a shopping cart full of groceries because you just couldn't mentally or physically finish? I was so there today. I needed to go to Wal-mart to get way too much. I hate going to Wal-mart. It is huge and spread out and takes forever! I try to only go every two weeks and longer if we can make it. Needless to say we were out of everything. My little shopper has been so worn out today from our picnic yesterday. I didn't plan our day well and headed to Wal-mart about 45 min from her usual nap time. Bad decision. I seriously couldn't remember to get what I needed even with my list in my hand. I definitely think that pregnancy affects the brain. I went from the front of the store to the back three times. Ella decided about half-way that she was done. I tried all of my usual tricks and they weren't any fun today. She wanted me to carry her and cried and cried for mommy's hair. When she gets tired she likes to run her fingers through my hair. I used to think this was so cute when she first started doing it. Now it sometimes drives me a little crazy! In fact, in the car she cries for my hair (not me) and of thankfully it is too short to reach to the back seat! So with a few more isles I gave in and got her out. I was trying to push the cart that was full and carry her and check my list while she was playing with my hair and I think I was almost in tears. I kept telling myself that I was almost done....and I would have in fact left but that would have meant I'd had to go back later! So I persevered...and when I got to the check out my arms were shaking and I was sweating and saw that the lines were like 10 people long. The Lord must have known I was on my last leg and a lady opened up a new line and a sweet,older man ahead of me saw my despair and said you go ahead...you need to get done and get that baby home. We made it home...I put ella in her bed to nap and I unloaded! Whew! I think I may never go back to Wal-mart....at least for a long time!